IM BACK.

So im back from my month long abandoning this blog. 

I have come back from california two weeks ago to only come back to MORE THINGS TO DO. 

Im out of school for the summer thank god. and out of tempe. 

I really cant stand that place anymore. 

Im in search for an apartment over there and from the looks of it ill be getting a pretty good place. So im excited for living somewhere thats NOT A DORM aka cockroach hotel. 

California was very relaxing and I used it to put myself back together and think up of some new goals for myself. I always used to find goals for myself and make sure everything gets done right away and I fulfill those. Well apparently life doesnt go that way. Its taking a while for everything to come together, but I finally have figured out what I want to do for the rest of my life. And thats to do design and art. I cant find or see myself doing ANYTHING other than that. Just the thought of me becoming an artist/designer makes me excited. So I think im starting out on the right path. 

So being back in Phoenix is SO BUSY and so many things going on in my life. You can probably say im being a little more selfish, Im trying to do things for myself and just trying to figure out the right places I belong. I cannot waste any time here at ASU anymore like I have been just fucking around and feeling sorry for myself and for everyone else. I would go to my friends alot when I had some hard times cause I LOVE my friends so so much. But I think its time to find out my problems by myself and not with the help of alcohol. I NEED TO STOP DRINKING. Now that im at home and obviously cant parade around like an obliterated mess, I cant believe how much I drank at the dorms and how shitty I felt so many times. I was pretty fucked up and I just really hope not to fall into that anymore. Im sick and tired of high school bullshit and people acting basically like little shits. 

All im trying to say is, Its time for us to all grow up. 

Like seriously. 

We are all fucking juniors COLLEGE. when did that happen? Last I saw myself even barely graduating high school. Time is going by faster than ever and while I hate it, I love it cause I am ready to be where I want to be and thats not wasting my time doing things i dont wanna do. 

Anyways. I got into this stage where I need to wear a belt with everything. 

Its kind of odd. But i like it. 

Im making more art than EVER and cant wait to make more. Thats what I love about summer. I dont have bullshit homework to worry about. 

More tomorrow. The end.