So here's what it comes down to...

I wish you could all just see further into me. 

cause some of you only know the surface. 

all so quick to judge yet stand by your side like your the only goddamn friend they've got. 

this is so hard for me and im ready to quit and leave. ive skipped them again. and im feeling it. 

its the worst ever. i can make the most irrational decision in a second. and not even think twice about it. you have no fucking idea. 

i dont expect anyone to know anything about me. but dont be so quick to talk shit cause ill know it one way or another. and honestly i dont give a fuck. cause i have worse problems to deal with than you. its not worth my time what i have going on for me right now. 

On the other hand,

i want you to know what i know. 

i put myself in this situation thinking i was going to get further. 

but of course you either dont want to or realize it. 

its really hard. 

i could have easily pushed you away. 

but i dont want to do that. 

what are your intentions?

i dont know what mine are. 

but im pretty sure they are for the wrong reasons. 

and im pretty sure yours are too. 

so i guess i just have to take it how it is?

lets see how long this will last.

cause i might end it soon. 

but thats something that im not choosing to do.