Its over

Im not even in the right mind.

Im all over the place.

I didnt think it would have to come to this.
but i need to get better.
and this is the only way.

they dont want to accept it.
they dont want me to take the ----.
anything to get me there.
and through it
and out of it.
Just to get me through.


Im not the person i want to be.
im so dissapointed.
but its taking over me.
i know i look ok.
i look happy.

whats wrong?


nothing you need to know about.
but i dont think i can like,
do this anymore.

I want to just
crawl up in a corner

and cry.


Its not fair.
Life isnt fair.
Bad things happen to good people.
Sometimes, SHITHAPPENS.
and now you need to work your whole life around it.


For me,
its like
my extra baggage.
I need to deal with it.
and its hard.
FUCK.
Ive dealt with it for 2 years now.
and it just gets
worse
and worse


and worse.


and look where I am now.
look what I have accomplished.
absoutely
fucking
nothing.b



as for him.
i feel horrible.
now he needs to start over.
itsjustnotfair
he worked so hard.
and now its all gone.

now it needs to start OVER.
fuck
the
goddamn
fucking


system.

im sorry.